The End

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
William Ernest Henley

It is the end of the year and I am very excited to go off to college and start my own adventure. take my life into my own hands and become responsible for my actions and all that good stuff. Although High School has been great I am ready to leave. But I do know that because I am going to a college and NOT majoring in art, my painting and or drawing will be down to a minimum. I do not see myself as an artist in 10 years, although that would be pretty cool. In all honesty I have NOOOO idea what i will be doing in ten years. I would like to have had a kid by that point, but otherwise I dont really know. Right now I would like to be a baker or chef when I grow up, but I could also go into advertising or maybe anthropology, or archeology. It just all depends on what appeals to me as I grow up, and what doors I shut along the way.
I dearly love this class and don't really want to leave it, because I love to paint and to draw, and hopefully I will continue to, but not as often as I am now. I have learned so much from art this year, about myself as an artist. I have learned that if I just try I can improve quickly. I feel like from the beginning of the year up until now there has been a great change in my skill as an artist. I have also learned that I love to paint with wild colors and large brushes, anything with texture appeals to me. something abstract but recognizable is absolutely beautiful to me. My favorite piece this year I think was my last. It was a picture of a man and a women, naked (of course) standing in a bare room. but they were very abstract yet identifiable, which is why i liked it. But i also like my self portrait and the donuts i did at the beginning of the year.

I wish to tell incoming AP-2D people to appreciate this class, because it is the one class where you know you can do well in. you can relax here and let your imagination run wild. don't be afraid to awaken your imagination. stretch your brain a bit and start to think about what means something to you. Always paint something that is meaningful to you because if you like it others will like it too.
The thing that I like the best about this year was Scholastic art awards. I had so much fun there. going and setting up was interesting and then actually going to the show and seeing what Oregon can do is inspirational. I think submitting something is always a good idea even if you don't make it in. But definitely go to the show and see all of the people's works. You can really see what other people your age can do, meaning that you can do it too if you just try. it can either be a serious confidence booster or it can fuel you to compete. But definitely submit something, and DEFINITELY go.

FIN

Well it's the end of the year and i am very happy about that. I will finally have some time to really get down and dirty in the kitchen. I intend to make so many cakes I will not be able to find people to take them all. I think i am done with my houses for haiti project so i want to start something else before the end of the year. Don't know what yet, but i would like to try. oh and a side note I am writing this right now surrounded by 5 adorable kittens. they are about 5 weeks old and oh so cute.

i am done

i am so done with everything. I am done with high school and I am done with studying, I just want to stay home and read. But alas, I still have a month and a half left, darn. But I think I can make it, or at least I hope, can't give up yet, not yet not yet not yet.

so tired

these past two weekends have just been non stop stuff. my college list has been shortened to about 6, i have worked on APUS for more than 24 hours all put together (which sucks) but i did get to work on art. I was able to work for like 6 hours on 3 different pieces. one is a lady in a donut, floating out to sea. another is a women on a couch with licorice lining and another is a women (of course) in a Victorian dress surrounded by a cande coated landscap, so it's pretty interesting. I have been watching buffy while painting. i like that show. I really hope i am able to finish these three paintings as well as the fourth one at school. But we'll see, everything is on a timeline and everything is going so hard so fast. we'll see how well this works out. i just would like to rest.

HMMM

nobody actually reads this do they? well that's fine i guess. But this weekend has been a really tough weekend. my only time to work on art was friday. I did spend a good 6 hours working on 3 different paintings. I just painted over a couple I didn't really like that much. so yes, i am working on 3 at home and 1 at school. I want to see if I will be able to finish all of them by the end of this month. i am betting no, but we'll see. 2 of them are oils, and one is acrylic. I think i should really look into other techniques you can use with oils, because I feel like I am not getting as much depth as I could. I think maybe I will call my grandma and ask for some advice. I have also noticed it is much harder to get really bright vibrant colors with oils, or maybe that's just because my colors aren't that intense. We shall see. But one is a victorian lady with food everywhere, the other is going to be a woman on a couch surrounded by food, and then the third is someone floating in a donut and someone else on a cupcake. I am such a girl, obsessed with pastries and bright colors. Just show my something shiny and I will follow. Oh well, I can't help it that I am a walking cliche, well I could but whatever, I like pastries and bright colors.

Spring Break

I went to the coast and did nothing but then I came home and painted so much that I started seeing brush strokes behind my eyelids. I am almost done with my 2 paintings, but I have been working very hard at it. My self portrait looks like me, but only kind of like me. The thing is I dont think that there is anything else I can do to make it much better, because it wont ever be perfect, but i guess that's ok. I also am almost done with my ring fingers one. I also bought a tub of licorice and I am going to make a self portrait again out of licorice. I just need a photo to base it off of. But otherwise I am out of ideas, which is not good.

eat me concentration

hopefully kirstin wont kill me for this but here is the before and after pics for her lovely painting. it kinda looks like her. and then the curly one is my self portrait, which kinda looks like me. my concentration has somethis to do with women and food. so... ya. hope all y'all like it.